pouring out my guts...(from the Bride)

yes, the "bride"is finally entering the blog world.."hello to all who (if any) read this"..I decided that this will be a place I pour out what is burning in my soul..so here I go. Me and my handsome man went for a walk at night and as we walked a girl was screaming bloody murder and a man was yelling and she ran out and someone pulled her back in, I just stopped and thought we should call the cops but of course tom thought we should pray..so we sat on the curb and prayed. I felt that there is always a spiritual battle in the heavenlys and it is our church to engage ourselves and FIGHT. I figure in life we are either fighting the enemy or letting him use us to oppose God's army..one or the other at all times.. I wonder about the apathetic and where they rate in the battle and I believe that their apathy is the sharpest tool the enemy uses to keep back God's hand from sweeping across this rebellious, possessed capitivity. I was reading in Hebrews 5:7, where it speaks of Jesus .."offering up prayers and supplications with STRONG CRYING AND TEARS unto him that was able to save from death, and He was HEARD in that He feared." I always wonder what it is to "fear the Lord".. Its abandoning your emotions recklessly to a power that is sovereign and ready to hear and move where there is faith. God says that he is always looking to and fro around the world to see who will pray..I am humbled tonight. I feel a burning to weep and WAIL and SCREAM for God's hand to move and for armies of heaven to be released. There is alot of crap around us ..Push past whatever it is , even if it is yourself and grab the throne and don't let go till you pray with passion and feel the wings rush past you and hear the swords in battle and the victory is declared... I stand with braveheart and cry "FREEDOM". may we all be passionate or die . apathy is suicide in the spirit. we declare war on it's power and heaviness that comes through everything from our filled closets to our disease filled televisions.. where is prayer ? It is silenced by our crunching potato chips and lexus engines..help us God we are drowning in success, careers and college diplomas..it's all hell's ashes if it doesn't bring your kingdom to earth!- I covet your prayers.rae.